To the ones who call me Mom
This is the life I dreamed of, being your mom. You are daddy's and my adventure. You see, when I was just dreaming of you, praying for you, wondering about you, I never could have quite imagined how wonderful you would really be.
I couldn't imagine how so much personality could be wrapped up in such a tiny body.
I couldn't have imagined the sleepless nights. The worry over your teeth, your health, your feelings, your future.
I couldn't have imagined the sweetness of your smile or the way your eyes sparkle when you laugh. And oh that laugh. Each of you have such distinct giggles and senses of humor. Your laugh is contagious, your smile brings joy.
I couldn't have imagined how precious the quiet moments would be. The conversations. The questions. The stories. Learning about your interests is so very intriquing to me. I'm amazed by you, each one of you.
I couldn't have imagined the bond you'd have. You know each other well. You fight hard but play harder. You accepted new family into your life with ease. Really, with the love of Jesus. I am continually amazed by you.
I couldn't have imagined how well you could love others. You love so well that often times I am the one learning from you. The biggest lessons I've learned in life have come from being your mom. You have made my heart more tender. You have opened my eyes to see the world anew. You have made me whole and brought me to tears. You have made me who I am today. You have challenged me to be consistent and loving and kind.
I couldn't imagine being anything else but your mom.
I ooudn't have imagined laying it all down at the feet of Jesus. But I've done that, over and over again. And I will continue to do so. I will parent you for as long as I have the privilege to do so. Because, dear children, each one of you is such a blessing to me. You have my heart.
And although I hope and pray that I never have to go through what I continue to go through with losing Thao, I know that no matter how this ends, however and whenever we say goodbye, I know, without a shadow of a doubt that I would do it all over again, a million times over. Because you are so worth it. You are loved. You are cherished. You are wanted. You are mine.
And most importantly, you are a child of the King. And He made you exactly who He wanted you to be.
So, my babies, you are my dream come true, my adventure. And as much as I love you, please remember Who loves you more.